00:32:47 Lu Wang: wonder
00:32:48 Dilshad Mehta: excitement
00:32:50 Laurel Mentor: Creation
00:32:57 Sandy Doble: connection
00:32:59 Lisa Otto: Excitement
00:41:39 Lu Wang: yes
00:41:39 Laurel Mentor: yes
00:41:40 Lisa Otto: Yes
00:41:41 Sandy Doble: yes
00:42:03 Lu Wang: i’m here but not here
00:42:15 Lisa Otto: It’s a feeling, a profound sensing
00:42:16 Sandy Doble: I am
00:42:29 Laurel Mentor: It’s a bio signature, no words for it
00:43:05 Lu Wang: yes
00:43:07 Dilshad Mehta: yes
00:43:14 Laurel Mentor: yes
00:43:14 Sandy Doble: yes
00:43:20 Lisa Otto: Yes
00:43:29 Dilshad Mehta: life
00:43:44 Sandy Doble: creation
00:43:45 Laurel Mentor: growth
00:44:30 Lu Wang: determination
00:44:41 Lisa Otto: Existence
00:45:47 Dilshad Mehta: bliss
00:45:48 Lu Wang: complete
00:45:53 Laurel Mentor: whole
00:46:10 Sandy Doble: Whole supported
00:46:40 Lisa Otto: Whole
00:48:12 Dilshad Mehta: nothing
00:48:14 Lu Wang: imagination
00:48:19 Lu Wang: I also had nothing
00:48:20 Laurel Mentor: focusing
00:48:32 Lisa Otto: Conscious living
00:48:36 Sandy Doble: Creating
00:49:57 Lu Wang: soft and receptive
00:49:57 Dilshad Mehta: Heart work
00:50:16 Lu Wang: sorry my cam went wonky
00:50:23 Laurel Mentor: tenderness
00:50:25 Sandy Doble: Soften and be more accepting
00:50:56 Lisa Otto: Allow the flow
00:53:09 Dilshad Mehta: perfect
00:53:17 Laurel Mentor: Joyful
00:53:17 Lu Wang: good and relaxed, a sigh of relief
00:53:22 Lisa Otto: Alive
00:53:24 Sandy Doble: excited
01:00:09 Lu Wang: harshness
01:00:58 Sandy Doble: judgement
01:01:04 Laurel Mentor: Going into my head, ego.
01:01:16 Dilshad Mehta: depression
01:01:18 Dilshad Mehta: anger
01:01:22 Lisa Otto: Fear, judgement
01:02:27 Lu Wang: fear and constraints
01:02:40 Laurel Mentor: Being a victim
01:02:40 Lisa Otto: Ego
01:03:12 Dilshad Mehta: Feeling humiliation
01:03:18 Dilshad Mehta: anger
01:03:19 Dilshad Mehta: grief
01:03:36 Dilshad Mehta: Disconnecting from the present
01:03:36 Sandy Doble: Procrastinating
01:04:18 Lu Wang: fear of being left out, ostracized from family
01:04:19 Lisa Otto: Fear of failure
01:04:22 Sandy Doble: Belief that I don’t deserve it
01:04:26 Dilshad Mehta: What will other people think? I will look like a fool. I don’t know what talking about.
01:04:48 Laurel Mentor: Fear just came up, no words
01:04:51 Dilshad Mehta: Ill do something wrong
01:05:50 Lu Wang: yesterday
01:05:55 Dilshad Mehta: Just today
01:05:56 Laurel Mentor: now
01:06:17 Lisa Otto: Today
01:06:21 Sandy Doble: now
01:06:39 Dilshad Mehta: Gave in to the anger
01:06:49 Lu Wang: I tried to think through a half baked plan and then stopped
01:06:59 Lisa Otto: I acted
01:07:00 Laurel Mentor: Resisted
01:07:06 Sandy Doble: Accepted that I have to move
01:11:11 Lu Wang: Things are fine, don’t rock the boat. Sounds like my mom
01:11:17 Lu Wang: probably early 29s
01:11:19 Lu Wang: *20s
01:11:56 Laurel Mentor: As a young child, feeling I am not safe in the world
01:12:00 Dilshad Mehta: Pre-teen- this is too chaotic, go to bed, go to my room, be alone, under the blanket
01:12:18 Sandy Doble: What will people think. When I was about 12
01:12:58 Lisa Otto: Feeling of perpetual fatigue…after becoming a parent with two kids
01:13:52 Dilshad Mehta: isolated
01:13:55 Lu Wang: lukewarm water, suffocating, boring
01:13:59 Sandy Doble: hidden
01:14:02 Lisa Otto: It feels muddy
01:14:03 Laurel Mentor: Lonely, boring, repetitive
01:14:37 Dilshad Mehta: fragmented
01:14:38 Lu Wang: boring, shallow, fake, lacking in value
01:14:43 Lisa Otto: It feels chaotic
01:14:51 Sandy Doble: stagnant
01:14:57 Laurel Mentor: Trying to make us feel small
01:15:49 Lu Wang: probably everything?
01:15:55 Lu Wang: though I don’t think I could
01:15:56 Sandy Doble: comfort
01:16:16 Lisa Otto: My life…as in the life I live as I know it
01:16:28 Laurel Mentor: My service
01:17:19 Laurel Mentor: brb
01:37:37 Dilshad Mehta: My dog, my home
01:37:41 Sandy Doble: My will
01:37:45 Lu Wang: catalyst (perhaps environmental), having a baby
01:38:00 Laurel Mentor: My soul’s desire
01:38:44 Lisa Otto: Consciousness
What did you not do?
01:39:22 Dilshad Mehta: Moved forward. Created. lived
01:39:33 Lu Wang: Being open to new ideas. Research. Haven’t put anything real in place yet
01:39:56 Lisa Otto: Allowed flow, flowed, predict or constraint
01:40:19 Laurel Mentor: Created an opportunity for change, committed to change . Dug deeper into my resistance.
01:40:40 Sandy Doble: Joined this group. Accepted change. Didn’t change
01:41:28 Lu Wang: deterioration, intense unhappiness
01:41:29 Lisa Otto: Stagnating
01:41:30 Laurel Mentor: Doubt, confusion.
01:41:33 Sandy Doble: Stagnation,
01:43:20 Lu Wang: confusion, lack of confidence in my abilities, not sure what to do
01:43:37 Laurel Mentor: It was easier, more familiar.
01:43:38 Sandy Doble: Change is uncomfortable, and I don’t believe that I can
01:43:59 Dilshad Mehta: laziness
01:44:29 Lisa Otto: Less hassel
01:44:59 Lu Wang: lose everything to gain everything
01:45:37 Lu Wang: fearlessness, confidence, relief
01:45:59 Laurel Mentor: Focusing on the affirmation I let come…
01:46:04 Lisa Otto: To face the hassle…to have the confidence to meet it head on
01:46:25 Sandy Doble: Accept my abilities and just get out there
01:46:41 Lu Wang: Oh I see, ok. Being receptive to divine inspiration and having the courage to act upon them
01:50:05 Lu Wang: 8, coming to Canada. I feel part of me didn’t understand what was going on. I see now that it was an important move though at the time, I resisted and felt very confused. I became more withdrawn and I didn’t have the ability or resources to approach the situation with positive confidence.
01:50:42 Laurel Mentor: I was about 13, just looking out the window of the car, and it occurred spontaneously that I felt that I had a greater mission. I did not understand what I was supposed to do, I did not seek help, share how I felt.
01:50:58 Lu Wang: As a result, I feel like I have the feeling of being resource-less and afraid as an imprint
01:52:26 Sandy Doble: I got to see the future a few seconds ahead. Didn’t believe what had happened but wanted to believe a the same time. My doubts of myself and the thoughts of what will people think of me if I voiced what had happened. I was about 13.
01:53:18 Lisa Otto: I was in my late twenties and I knew I had to go see my grandmother. She was sick and dying and I knew she needed feminine energy around her. My uncle told me to wait but I knew I had to come right away and I was present when she passed
01:54:04 Laurel Mentor: I have lots of red blips…
01:55:05 Lu Wang: feeling for the grander vision of my life
01:55:21 Laurel Mentor: Trusting in the power of my true will.
01:55:30 Dilshad Mehta: Need to come back to more self spiritual work in my life
01:55:39 Lisa Otto: To feeling of freedom when connected to 1st thought
01:55:49 Sandy Doble: I have so many more layers to uncover.
01:56:11 Dilshad Mehta: I do
01:56:17 Lu Wang: need to become softer
01:56:29 Sandy Doble: Acceptance of who I am
01:56:40 Dilshad Mehta: Releasing anger
01:56:47 Laurel Mentor: The mindset of, I’m too tired, I don’t want to right now.
01:57:57 Lisa Otto: My ‘comfort’ of procrastination